My Man's Samich

I use Beaver Deli Mustard.
I used Miracle Whip.... and
don't blame me.

























































I used my garden-grown cukes,
made pickles!

I used two kinds of cheese.

I used 5 kinds of meat. Salame, pastrami, pepper turkey, chicken, and ham. Sourdough bread, salt, pepper, greek dressing.

Sugar and Spice....

I was leaving in my rental car...driving down the street after pulling out of my kids' driveway, headed to the Portland Airport. It was raining. My granddaughter ran beside my car in her polka dot dress..barefoot.. yelling "don't leave, I love you gramma...I love you gramma". She was on the sidewalk.

I had to stop at the sign before turning right...my window was down. I saw her eyes filled with tears...and absolutely saw her choke down that cry. She waved....I blew her a kiss and turned right.

What I wish I'd done...and I knew it right at that stop sign...was to jump out of that car...run a few steps to her..pick her up and tell her I was sad too..and it was okay to be sad..and that I'll be back soon..like always...but I didn't do it. Stupid me...I was afraid of making things worse. How can it be bad to validate what someone is going through?

That is how we women learn to swallow our feelings...and model it for the little girls, and boys, in our lives.

Something's Fishy 'Round Here

Oyster's....I love thee. I do not know why my photos are "out of order"....but oh well.





























Love scallops over porccinni pasta with three kinds of mushrooms...and swiss chard.


I can shuck oyster's with the best of 'em. Not really...but I can get those suckers open.

To Blog or Not to Blog...that is the equestrian.

I have really struggled with my blog...with it's content mostly. In the meantime, I've just been posting photos with little blips about what I cooked, what the cat's are up to, etc. Should I stay on this horse..or get the hell off?

Recently a Sacramento publication listed all of the food bloggers in Sacramento..except mine. The writer of the piece told me she got her info from two "popular" local food blogs...where they list other food blogs they like.. and mine wasn't listed on either blog. She also asked someone at The Bee.

I haven't been committed to the food blog lately..that is for sure. I've actually felt pretty stuck..in a real rut in my life.. and ended up going to counseling for several months to try to figure it out. All I really know is what I don't want to do..which is a good thing.

I don't want to kiss anyone's ass, I don't like putting up with/or hanging out with people I don't particularly enjoy. I don't want to hang out with people who don't particularly enjoy my company either. Makes sense. I don't like cooking classes...no matter how much I like the instructor. Maybe it's cause I don't like group stuff much...unless it's a very casual dining experience with people I consider to be friends.

I hate to follow recipe's and I hate to write them out. I usually just make stuff up as I go along. I don't regret cooking and blogging through Marlena's cookbook...that was great! I learned a lot about myself and made a few special friends as a result. I've done a few things on this blog that I'm really proud of.

I don't like bullshit. I'm tired of bullshitting myself. I'm tired of people who bullshit me. No more BS. I've fucked up in the past, I'll fuck up again...but am aiming at very few as the years go on. I'm tired of explaining myself and won't do it anymore. Let bygone's be begonia's. I'm moving on. Still not sure what I'll end up doing. We'll see. I do like to laugh...plan to do more of that!

I y'am what I y'am~Popeye